Dear friends and fans,
I need to share some personal thoughts with all in hope you will understand the pain I have been feeling the past year.
My dad and I have always been
very close, but now since he moved out. We have grown distant. This makes me very sad and angry at the same time. I know that has been hard because lately I have found that I will grow angry at the most ridiculous times. In which I will post a journal saying that I am either leaving or hating anything and everyone.
My poems and my pictures may not be what you all wish to see and read. But they are what I feel deep down. I am an only child and have found this site to be a companion. So when I post its cause sometimes I am very hurt and angry. I don't mean to hurt my friends or fans with my words, but when I receive negative comments I feel the need to fire back, because that is what I have had to do in the past.
Please forgive me for my ugly words. My hateful pictures and poems. I will try not to use them in the future. But my art and poems deal with the lose of my family and father.
If you have a positive comment if any have delt with divorce. I would surely be happy to hear your words of wisdom to help me deal with it better. But please respect me and hateful thoughts.
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To my closest ones
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My sisters:
Kittey, Gray, Carmen
I've hated what I have said to you three. I did not mean to damage what sisterly closeness we had before. Kittey you are one of my closest sisters I've know you since I joined almost 4 years ago. You are smart, brave, and full of spunk. I love how you’re always in someone’s face and never letting anyone get you down. Gray I met you mid way your older than me and I feel I can come to you for info on anything. You always seem to convince me what I'm doing is wrong or could be improved in some way which makes you an awesome older online sibling. Carmen i know we've had our bouts but when you come to me being all adult and saying what I'm doing is stupid or something mean I feel hurt and mega confused. Yes I'm older but to an extent I don't get allot of things because I'm so simple with how i think. But I got to say I love your art your funny way of making me laugh and I love chatting with you.
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My best friend:
rukinosan/Niki:
Niki you've been there for me ever since middle school when we met in lunch then fully met during that pep rally and you scared those bullies after they kept pushing me around. Your awesome, scary, funny, heck of a friend. If i had to give an organ to you I’d do it in a heart beat your that much of a friend to me. You’re considered family by my family and I think to a point i am with yours. It's hard to tell
But as I just counted we've been friends for 8 almost 9 years. That's just amazing! You’re a true friend. You already know how to make me smile when I’m sad.
show me some string and I’m happy XD If i bug you to much you'll glare and i know to back off and just smile. You know my fave food is broccoli and i know yours is chocolate. I'm glad to have you as a friend for so long and I hope we stay friends for even longer.
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biggest one to readTo my girlfriend
Ride6/Ashley
I don't know where to begin on this one. I know we've only been together a short time, but I can honestly say I'm head over heels for you. I know you are the same for me. Lately we've been fighting allot. I know your afraid and think I will leave you or not love you anymore. But that is VERY hard for me. I want you to know that from now on if I say "I think we need to take a little time out." I'm not saying we need to break up I'm just saying we need a little breathing space. We talk most of the day and are up WAAYYYY to late at times. Your in school and I don't want you ALWAYS focusing on me.
You need to focus on your studies just as much. And PLEASE don't say "but I love you I can't stop being away from you" Your just worried of loosing me or me getting hurt. <= ) but I promise you with all my heart
You won't lose me. I just need my space at times to hang with friends and family and play my video games and also do my chores. You need your time to do your homework and your chores too.
But I just want to let you know I'll love you no matter what. Just PLEASEEEEE Don't panic about me so much I am older and I can take care of my self.
I love ya hon I always will
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Sentimental
EEE! i'm getting heartgold X3 Sooo if anyone wants to help me with some pokemon or as we call them "fakemon" XD i got a couple of ideas idk X3 i'll post 2 i have drawn
